Fall 'Roid Week, Day Four!

1. afternoon light, 2. Branch, 3. in our yard, 4. Untitled, 5. Untitled, 6. steps up, 7. guess what today is?, 8. Welcome to Paradise, 9. my spring, 10. 10/29/08, 11. Untitled, 12. I had to do it, 13. Balance 10.29.2008, 14. day 339 : 365 • pola love, 15. lone palm, 16. Untitled, 17. one of the nicest places in belgium, 18. Cowboy Kitty, 19. the last supper, 20. ocean stars , 21. sisters, 22. , 23. Untitled, 24. Untitled, 25. Untitled

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Fall 'Roid Week, Day Three!

1. day 3, 2. pola #3 - and the leaves fall, 3. a morning..., 4. Day 3, 5. rebecca's not missing, 6. pier2, 7. good morning, ferris., 8. Untitled, 9. Yellow, 10. k.j.b., 11. Untitled, 12. giallo [ autumn mode ], 13. return to work, 14. shopping, 15. a day at the beach, 16. Untitled, 17. Untitled, 18. leaves & spokes

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Today

I voted!

I don't think I've ever been so excited to vote in my life.

Yay!

Fall 'Roid Week, Day Two!

1. Untitled, 2. morning kitchen, 3. Untitled, 4. Untitled, 5. yes darling, 6. Feeling small, 7. Untitled, 8. Are you coming home tonight?, 9. Untitled, 10. village - a - roid, 11. Untitled, 12. Untitled, 13. Lonely At the Top, 14. Soft white socks, 15. hello dollies, 16. birds on a wire

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Fall 'Roid Week, Day One!

1. monday, 2. polaroid week is on!, 3. Untitled, 4. shore., 5. pegs, 6. Untitled, 7. Flying, 8. My Girls, 9. Communication is So Complicated | 2008, 10. decisions, 11. An apartment in Paris, 12. an oldie, 13. Untitled, 14. devil deer, 15. tomorrow is another day

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Feeling blue.

On a happy note, Fall 'Roid Week started today. Yay Polaroid! I'll be posting my faves from the pool all week.

As for feeling blue, I don't know, I guess it's still fall out from the whole job mess. I do believe that the change is for the best and I'm feeling mostly optimistic about the situation, but nonetheless, there are some raw feelings there. Part of me hasn't gotten over being shocked. Another not so nice part of me keeps chanting, "LOSER" inside my head. And the fact that I have to go to back to work tomorrow has me feeling a bit weird too. My boss and I are okay, but, I don't know. It's just an odd situation.

And actually, for being someone who has a tendency to ruminate about things quite a bit, I'm doing a pretty good job of not constantly thinking about what happened. A pretty good job. Random thoughts sneak in though. Particularly when I wake up in the middle of the night. It's like, "oh yeah, I don't have a job anymore." Which sometimes leads to an evaluation of my entire life and all the things that I feel stupid about or could have done differently or feel that I failed at or whatever. Not real productive, let me tell you.

But mostly I am good. Just putting one foot in the front of the other. Perusing all the job postings that I know about for Santa Fe. Making lists of things that I'd love to accomplish while I have more time. Knitting. Lots and lots of knitting. And taking pictures. I am thinking I am going to have pull out the digital camera more often now since getting film processed gets expensive when one doesn't have a steady income. It's not like my film experiments have been particularly stellar anyhow.

Anyway.

It's all okay. I'm just blue today. (And there are some football blues in there too. Our loss yesterday was so disappointing.)

Well, I'm off to dine on chicken pot pie and watch Sex and the City.

Take some Polaroid pictures this week!!

Game Day

I'm nervous.

flickr faves

1. L.A.Fair4-680-9-21-08, 2. we weren't always friends, 3. Untitled, 4. Untitled, 5. ora mi disabituo pure di me stessa, 6. sky rocket in flight, 7. about to sneeze, 8. Window, 9. september quilt, 10. Alicanto bird siblings, 11. Untitled, 12. 261 (market)

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A little bit chilly.

Last night it dropped down to 20 degrees or so. Brrrrr! I was wide awake until after 3:00 AM and the house got so chilly, that the heater actually came on! (It was set on 50 degrees or so.)

After the day that I had yesterday - which I am not going to discuss here because there's only so much I want to say about work - I was not in the least bit surprised that I couldn't sleep. My head just wouldn't stop. I finally got up and watched a fairly crappy movie on cable called Broken. If you can't sleep, go ahead and watch it, otherwise, I'd say don't bother.

As for work, suffice it to say that after Wednesday of next week, I will officially be unemployed. A bit unexpected to say the least, but ultimately I think it's for the best. Besides, I did say I needed something to change. Well, here it is.

The weather warmed up a bit this afternoon so I spent some time in the yard, clearing out the rest of the garden. My zinnias finally bit the dust with the freezing temperatures of last night. It felt good to be out in the sun. Then I knit up an hand-warmer pattern from Weekend Knitting. I only made one so far and it's slightly too big on me so I think I'm going to adjust the pattern a bit and make two smaller ones. My hands are so damn small, it's always hard to find anything that fits right.

This evening it's going to be chicken tacos and a few more episodes of The Wire.

Be careful what you wish for.

You might end up without any job at all.

On Autumn.

Things to love about autumn:

The colors of the leaves and
the deep blue skies.

Crisp air in the mornings.

Oatmeal for breakfast.
(I've never liked oatmeal before.)

Kitty cats sleeping through the night
and
snuggling on the bed.

Football season.

Snow covered mountains.

Apples!

Knitting holiday gifts.

So yes, there are many things to love about this time of year, nonetheless, it tends to not be a good time of year for me. Autumn often brings on depression for me. And while it isn't as bad as it used to be, it is floating around and I've had some very bad days. It also seems to be the time of year that work starts to get me down. I find myself more and more discontent. Particularly because I felt this way at this job last autumn and nothing has changed. Something needs to change. I need to make a change.

But what?

I am frustrated.

Lucky, yes. But still frustrated.

(And the fact that I did not even get a call back for my potential dream job does not help the depression and frustration. Still trying to accept that it must not have been the Dream Job. Or maybe it was and I got passed by. These things still keep me awake at night.)

But.

Today is Wednesday. I am off tomorrow and then also have a three day weekend. AND next week is Fall 'Roid Week!

The gnome makes me very happy.

A burst of color.

Game Day

Will said, "I am going to pretend I am driving a truck."

So that's what he's doing.

Let's go Steelers!

flickr faves

1. black eyed susan, 2. Untitled, 3. Yokohama BW 07, 4. vintage film poppies, 5. solitude, 6. Untitled, 7. 250 (saguaro), 8. Untitled, 9. Drunk But Cute, 10. orange pony, 11. about to, 12. Pier To Happiness

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Bye Week (No Game Day)

Sometimes the bye week leaves us feeling lost, this week we needed the rest. Or perhaps more aptly, the Steelers needed the rest. Ben has been getting roughed up, Willie's on the mend along with a handful of others. Here's hoping the come back stronger than ever after two weeks off.

Of course we still watch football. Maybe not as intensely, but we always watch. This seems to be the season of a lot of upsets and a lot of "THIS TEAM is the BEST TEAM" and then that team loses. Personally I think all the upsets and what not make for a much more interesting football season than a season in which there is one powerhouse that blows out all the other teams. Redskins are tough this season, but they lost to the Rams today. Cowboys are supposed to be on top, but they've been struggling in the past couple of games. They should have blown out the Bengals and didn't. Right now the game against the Cardinals isn't over yet, but it's a nail-bitter. So are the Cowboys really IT? Methinks we can't decide such things just yet.

I'm already looking forward to next Sunday. We finally have a morning game which means breakfast burritos, sausage balls and Bloody Marys!

Golden.

flickr faves

1. Bird Strike, 2. skeeter is old., 3. Untitled, 4. Untitled, 5. the pool, 6. air., 7. sunflower, 8. Mueller Trail sunset, 9. edge of the earth., 10. view from here, 11. fantasy land, 12. capital

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I always take the same pictures.

Holga, Polaroid, Digital.

I'm feeling rather bland these days.