I know, you might be thinking, "Well, just stop thinking about whatever it is. Let go. Move on." Unfortunately, it's not always that simple. At least not for me.
Sometimes taking self-portraits helps me deal with emotions or thoughts, because taking pictures is something that I love to do so it distracts me even when I am trying to express what is bothering me through the photo. I have to think about the shot and the light and I suppose, in a way, it turns me into an observer for awhile.
So, on this particular day, I had had it UP TO HERE with myself and so I set up the camera and took pictures. This one is multiple exposures, three, I think. I sat down, posed, took the shot. Tried to sit down in the same place, posed, took the shot. And so on. And when I peeled it apart, I found it to be a really great depiction of how crazy I was feeling. Wanting the noise in my head to just stop already.
After a pack of film and many self-portraits, I actually did feel better. Sometimes camera therapy is the best therapy.
(And for the record, I am totally not that skinny. It just looks that way because it is multiple exposures and my body overlaps itself in such a way that it makes me look way tinier than I actually am.)
This is a great photo! I can certainly relate to the emotion it. Sometimes I am my own worst enemy. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteCamera therapy. I totally know what you are talking about.
ReplyDeletefantastic - and a perfect outlet for stress. photography, self-portraits. writing about it too.
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